change.. friendship..

Salam~ :)

I was up till 4am last night... not because of doing assignments or what so ever.. I was Chatting... I was actually waiting for my sister... but then I forgot to change my status to online... So I think she thought that I was asleep~ :).. I was actually in a room downstairs... together with some of my dorm-mates.. 7 of us altogether...

It was such a relief for me... Its been a long time I didn't have what I called curhat-ing... As in group... We even cried last night...Listening to all the sufferings and hardships that we have shared here, there's no one, not even one person would understand such pain unless you experience it yourself.. and whats more disappointing is that all the hardships and difficulties that you face do change you in a way that you don't even realize it...

Its kind of funny hearing to what one of my dorm-mates said last night.. but I think it does happen frequently.. he said that 'for most people, when you are the type of person who do accept the fact that you've changed if someone tells you, the people around you tend to say-"I don't think you've changed, you're still the same." But when you are the type of person who do not accept the fact that you still haven't changed (well, it depends either you believe that you don't or you're just denying it).. then people around you will keep on insisting that you've changed in a way..'

Yeah.. I'll go for the first one... I always think that I've changed in a way.. but most of my friends like.."yakaaannn~~? inddaa juaaaa~~physically jua saja.." hahaha. I don't know whether they're being honest or.. hmm~ I wish that my friends do tell me or ask me straight to my face if there is anything that bother them.. my personality.. my bad... Inda pulang in a sarcastic way.. for sure I'm so not going to listen to it..instead I'll talk back at them.. Macam PRS consult people.. catulah.. very very calm...

I don't wish them to be so secretive... I do like people being honest...but then again... honesty in a sarcastic way.. -_- never act like that in front of me.. you'll get something that you won't even expect it to come from me.. Some have made good progressions...

Like last Sunday.. "Buzz, don't you think mud swing mu atu over the top udh kh? affect people in a way? dulu ko inda jua this type of person yg tend to explode arh urg lau ko badmud..." hahah! atu jua inda straight to my face.. Yes! I'm aware of that! he still smiled tho when he said it to me.. I replied to him..like.. "yeah~ I know.. dot dot dot.." That type of conversations will usually end pretty good..

Amal is one of the people that I know that speaks up her mind.. hahah!! Like last time I curhat something... sekali yang dibalas.. "ko atu jua bah~ luan karas.. " TOING!! hahaha! "kalau ko cani... cani ah.." hahaha!! P/S: Still on trip ko mal???? nada on92 ah??

There IS going to be a day.. where I'm so going to invite all my precious to speak out whats inside their hearts... I know there have been some ups and downs through out our friendships.. and those ups and downs are what we are going to talk or discuss about... take a note when I type those 2 words 'talk' and 'discuss'.. you undergraduate students should be smart enough to know the definitions of that 2 words.. I don't expect someone to start another conflict or a chaos during the discussion... give and take..Let it out~ please.. Cause I want to go through a 'clear' friendship once again...



Salam,
Buzz 246